"I"

I -who failed to achieve any of her life goals- am just sitting in my couch and looking for ideas. How can I change my life? Where should I begin? My school life is not going very well, I'm working on the other hand (the paycheck sucks by the way, I'm working all week and it's not even worth.) I'm tired, sad, depressed. Depression comes and goes time to time but it's always waving from there... My family is waiting for me to finish the school, I'm sorry for them, I'm sorry for myself. It's no one's fault but my own, I know that I've been lazy and not ambitious in my entire life.

I had dreams when I was growing up. I was gonna travel around the world and learn 5 other languages. I was gonna be free. I was gonna have a job that I love and pays good. And I was gonna use this money to travel more. I was gonna go to a school in other country. I was gonna be with people who gives me peace and doesn't hurt me. Which one is happened? None.

I can't believe I'm in this place right now. I used to hate these kinds of sentences but now I'm saying; I'd give anything to turn back to 7 years ago. Not even 4. Seven. I'd work hard, be a successful student and go to a better school. I'd finish my school in time and make reasonable choises in my personal life.

I was a happy girl. Here, in the middle of my youth, I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm drowning in my failures.